Life Chasing Littles

1. You will do things that you said you would never do

Remember that huge list of things you told yourself you “wouldn’t” do before becoming a parent? Yeah, you will probably go against your own words and do the complete opposite of what you had planned. The best part about this is that in the middle of letting your kids eat ice cream for breakfast you will remember how you said you wouldn’t be “that” parent yet here you are being that parent. What can you do? Laugh. Laugh until you have tears streaming down your face. Why? Because this is the reality of parenting. Some days you just give in to things you thought you would never allow and that’s ok.

2. You will be tired for the next million years

You will literally NEVER sleep. But coffee. Lots and lots of coffee. Funny thing is before having kids I hated coffee. Never drank it, never craved it. Now I absolutely need a cup of coffee every morning otherwise I will never make it through the day alive. You do the chores, cook, play games, drive to and from school, grocery shop, and even go to work. As tired as you are you push on through each day. And just when you think it’s time for bed you will lay awake until only God knows when thinking about all the things you have to do the next day (or if you’re anything like me anxiety will keep you awake). In the end, it will become something you get use to but I’m not lying when I say; you will always be tired as a mother.

3. You will cry tears of joy and you will cry tears of frustration

Everyday will be full of more emotions than you ever felt in your life. You will find yourself completely happy one minute and the next your wondering where you went wrong cause your child is throwing a fit over wanting the pink cup instead of the blue one. Yeah, who knew that the color of a cup would change the way your water tastes?! All the constant negotiation between you and your littles will get the best of you. And when you break down five times more than you did the day before that’s ok. You are human, which means you are allowed to feel. Motherhood will turn you every which way you could imagine. Yet you will find yourself wondering how so much love could fit into your heart that you will be humbled enough to forget all the little frustrations .

4. You will have days where you want to give up

There will be days that are hard, weeks that are hard, months that are hard. You will tell yourself over and over again that you just can’t take anymore of it. The house constantly feels full of chores and the mess never goes away no matter how much time you put in. Its an uphill battle of constant self doubt feeling like you aren’t doing good enough. Don’t worry though, every mom feels this at some point or another. You are not alone. My advice for you on those want to give up days is hide in the bathroom and cry while eating a piece of chocolate (that chocolate your kids don’t know about). At the end of the day giving up is not a choice because your whole family depends on you more than you know and honestly that feeling alone is pretty damn rewarding.

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Motherhood is not a Pinterest board and its not an Instagram account that you follow. Social media will filter out all the bad that comes with the good and make it hard to be happy with how you live your day to day life. Motherhood is a struggle. Everything changes yet you are more “you” than you have ever been. Its beautiful.

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Sometimes I feel like a bad mom, but all the time I feel like their mom. I carry their hearts in mine always and forever. You never know how strong you are until the only choice you have is to be strong.