One of the toughest hoods you’ll ever go through.
This past Sunday we attended church. We try to make it every Sunday, but you know.. Life gets in the way. It was our first time attending in a couple weeks and the service spoke to me more this time than it usually does. You see, being pregnant takes a huge toll on a woman’s body. So what once was my normal is no longer existent. From cleaning, to being consistent with healthy meals, sleep, even attending church has become hard. My body this time around is restless and tired; things that seem easy to others are not so easy for me. With that being said one major thing I have been feeling is frustration. This frustration stems from feeling defeated in my daily routine. We all know as a parent frustration comes naturally of course. My frustration though, runs much deeper because of all my extra hormones that pregnancy has blessed me with.
At church the service was about “love.” All the aspects of love should be done with patience and kindness, it is not self-seeking nor driven by anger. Being a mother love comes naturally for your littles. Its a feeling you feel instantly and it never fades; only grows. Sometimes though, our littles like to test the limits of our patience. They do things that they know are going to get a reaction out of you. I’m not exactly sure why this is but it drives me crazy. My daughter Sage has a very stubborn personality and loves to be in charge of everything. I get it, you have your own voice so why not put it to use? I’m not against her having independence but sometimes she forgets that she is only five. This is where parenting becomes a challenge because she would rather listen to herself than her parents.
I often forget that that frustration can negatively affect the way you parent. I lose sight of what is and act out with a little anger and all my patience is gone. These past 8 months have been a struggle when it comes to being the best Mama I can be. The church service really put things into perspective for me and I have been trying to clear my head before reacting to things Sage says or does. So thank you God, for being the reminder that I truly needed in my life right now. Remember that no one is a perfect parent and all these feelings are normal to feel. Guilt can play a huge factor at the end of the day, just know that tomorrow is a new day for you to give your littles all the hugs and kisses that they deserve!
Love is kind. Love is patient. Love is pure.
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